New Poems by Rachel Rix: “Experimental Simulation of Joint Morphology During Desiccation;” “Second Deployment;” and “CO’s Canon”

HAIR OF THE WOMAN / image by Amalie Flynn

 

Experimental Simulation of Joint Morphology During Desiccation

In the dried-up river bed of the Helmand the body of a husband lies dead on the

hot cracked dirt. The hair of the woman married to the husband hasn’t been

washed in days. Her arms flex and hook the husband’s lower limbs. Dragging

him makes each step the woman takes heavier than the last. Vultures hover her

salt trail. Vast is what they see surround her. The daymoon watches too. Night

never comes only more heat magnified by the hours, searing the thin flesh

between vertebrae C-6 and C-7. The woman knows she’s blistering. Letting go

of her husband is not an option she thinks of.

 

Second Deployment

Our agreement was
only one. I have
difficulty carrying myself,

I—weightless. Rising
to the crags. Old world vulture
alone I sail for hours in the sky.

I eat my home. A pile of bones.
I’ve learned to crack open
what I cannot swallow,
a lamb’s femur. I am

bone breaker. Soft tissue drinker.

I eat his words.
I’m now dust bather.
Silent blood tracer.

I am burial maker.
Tossed knuckle
scraper. Someday he’ll find me
by the bed
in a pile.

There will be a hovering
and a hollowing.
No welcoming home.

 

CO’s Canon

If the cadence may be regarded as the cradle of tonality, the ostinato patterns can be considered the playground in which it grew strong and self-confident.

His green duffel bag
could have carried two of me inside.

Near the opening a faceless angel,
I try: Dearest,

because I’m tumbleweed,
but he never reads me.

There are more important things
to do, shake hands with soldiers

going out on mission,
because when you’re the commander

it’s about survival.

I didn’t need to take
that last glance.

Suddenly tyrannosaurus.
Angel’s sepia teeth baring.




New Poem by Nathan Didier: “Hearts and Minds”

Spilling Our Blood / image by Amalie Flynn

Hearts and Minds

We came to provide help that you didn’t want.
We came to provide security you didn’t need.
We came to provide schools that you didn’t care about.
We came to provide a government that didn’t work.
We came to provide democracy you didn’t understand.
We came to provide infrastructure you wouldn’t take care of.
We came to provide a better life that you didn’t ask for.
And we kept spilling our blood and couldn’t understand how you could be so ungrateful.




New Fiction by Adrian Bonenberger: Calvary Hill

ancient port

 

Captain Abibalus was troubled. Walking up the dusty, cypress-lined path from Kyrenia’s harbor, Abibalus’ practiced eye took in the worn marble buildings. Much had changed since the last time he’d been here. A decade go, trade had been harder; less settled, but more profitable for the enterprising trader. It had been the same story in Alexandria. Old associates gone. Dead, driven out of business, or resting easy on the fruits of their labor. Dilapidated warehouses and fields gone to seed. At every corner, some gaudy new shop hawking poorly-made trifles. Rome had seen to it. Its gods were supplanting the old gods, its ways, the old ways.

Maybe he should have stayed in Iberia, Abibalus thought. The weather was worse, but there were more opportunities for a crafty and hardworking merchant like himself. Trade with the surly Gauls, and the taciturn British. Construction in that part of the Empire was booming, which meant an insatiable lust for materials, tools, and skilled labor. It created an energy very different from the one he could see in this aging port town.

Then he thought about dying in a foreign land, buried in the cold, wet soil without funeral rites. He shuddered. No, his people were from this area. He wanted to be mourned by a son or grandson when he passed, not years later, word of his passing carried by Rumor. He’d returned for good reason.

This glum mood couldn’t last long. Even after decades’ worth of journeys, the return to land always impressed Abiblus, whether it was to a faded backwater like this one whose glory days were long past, or to mighty Rome. The urban breeze was not pleasant — burning trash, burning wood from the smithies, burning, burning, burning — and occasionally, a small respite, the breeze carrying along a whiff of those crocuses Abibalus had never seen anywhere else. The sum of all these smells was commerce. For that, Abibalus had a nose like few others.

Meanwhile, strolling along the beaten dirt path he savored the way the solid earth didn’t sway the way his ship deck did while riding the Mediterranean’s waves. His body still felt the swaying; it would for a while to come. There was a time when he’d been able to absorb the transition from land to sea and sea to land effortlessly. Recently he’d noticed that it took longer to adjust. He’d experienced enough of life to understand that even this mild discomfort and disorientation was a kind of blessing. Like drinking too much. Another way for his body to navigate a strange and restless world.

Their journey from Alexandria had been smooth — Rome’s fleets effectively curtailing the activities of pirates. Now, his ship’s disposable cargo was in the process of being hauled out of the hold, to be turned into profit. At this stop it meant unloading ivory he’d taken on in Alexandria that had itself been ferried, carried and dragged from deep in the Egyptian interior. With the proceeds, he’d take on a load of copper before they continued to Syracuse. Later they’d finish at Ostia and unload the grain at the great city for which the Empire was named and on which so much depended. Even though the trade routes weren’t as profitable as they once were, certainly not for a small family outfit like his own, they were much more reliable. Grain shipments to Rome were an unostentatious way for a merchant like Abibalus to guarantee a prosperous journey, while making some deals on the side.

The Egyptian port city named for the great Greek conqueror had left a sour taste in Abibalus’ mouth. Not because of the trade; Abibalus had ferreted out a choice deal, though there were fewer of those than there had been a decade ago and took more effort to track down. No, because the city was so developed. A culture was settling over the Empire, a kind of complacency, expressed in new types of commercial activity. The vibrancy of Rome’s Republic was being replaced by a stultifying certainty. 100% returns on investment had shrunk to steady, stable 10% returns, barely enough to cover expenses unless one dealt in scale. Individual contractors were being replaced by guilds and associations. No more handshakes, no more personality.

And everything was getting cleaner and more expensive, transmuted by the magic of privilege and collective prosperity. Well, Abibalus thought, at least there was still one thing he could depend on, a rock of in an ocean of changeable novelty: Demetrius’ tavern. Each shaking step brought Abibalus closer to the tavern, where he could buy a fresh plate of roast lamb, and a cup of that good, fresh Cypriot wine they served. The tavern’s owner, a monumental figure named Demetrius who had settled down after making good on a lifetime of trades, had connections from the hills and mountains inland, he’d often boasted about it. The stuff the Cypriots didn’t ship abroad. It was dark, sweet, and rich; a flavor unlike anything Abibalus had ever found. It was a treasure in itself. There, with good wine, among other traders, Abibalus would see about prices in the area and get the latest news and rumors.

Although he’d passed away a few years ago, Demetrius left behind a wife and a large family. She and their youngest son ran the establishment. It was a popular gathering place and a convenient fixed point for striking deals or storing goods. A second opportunity to make a deal if for whatever reason, a shipment or agreement fell through. Especially with smaller projects. A few dozen crates of oranges you picked up on spec, a small shipment of olive oil you took a gamble on to maximize your profit. Having secondary markets on which to offload various speculative investments was a key to success — at least, Abibalus found that to be the case. 3% profit here and 7% there added up. And a small loss was better than a disastrous reversal.

Abibalus had sailed with Demetrius decades ago when starting out; the Cypriot had taken Abibalus on as a sailor, and then when he’d demonstrated a capacity for numbers, had helped stake him a share in the growing Roman-Iberian trade. After he’d paid Demetrius back for that investment, Abibalus had gone further, traded near the edge of the Empire.  Abibalus had considered the man more than a mentor — he’d been a friend. Demetrius had run a tight ship and taught Abibalus many of the nuances of shipping in this area, as well as the principles of trade. Family was the most important thing in business, but friendship counted for a lot too. Especially a friendship borne of the oaths men swore while steering into a wave taller than their ship’s mast, and praying to the various gods the ship’s crew venerated when a storm blew up unexpectedly in the Aegean. In fact word of Demetrius’ death was one of the reasons Abibalus had returned to this region: he’d left originally when striking out on his own, out of respect for the man and his legacy, and a desire not to compete with him.

As he walked past warehouses and small dwellings, Abibalus thought more about his old comrade. Beyond the pleasant memories of shared sea-battles, Abibalus held Demetrius in high esteem because he’d been charismatic and kind. Some of that magic had rubbed off on his establishment. Abibalus didn’t think much of his erstwhile captain’s wife, or his sons — nothing bad, but nothing good, either, he regarded them much the way he regarded anyone else — but the place endured in part because of the goodwill the man had accumulated over the course of his life, and the many connections that had subsequently been forged at his establishment. If Abibalus had any instinct for settling down, perhaps he’d look more closely at emulating Demetrius. But the sea called to him; a life on land was not in his soul. He had the money to settle many times over, and he was old, but he knew, deep in his bones, that he’d die in a boat, under the benevolent and crafty gaze of Melqart. His goods, his little network, would go to his sons, some of whom would prosper — his eldest, and his third — some of whom would probably squander it. Such was the way of the world.

With these uncharacteristic musings about legacy stirring his thoughts, Abibalus arrived at Demetrius’ tavern. The place had changed; they’d widened the front, and put up a wooden sign outside advertising themselves with a picture of a wine jug and a loaf of bread. Planters of small white and pink roses were placed tastefully on the windowsills, which had been spruced up with new planks of clean pinewood from the island’s mountainous interior. The establishment didn’t look quite so rough as it had under Demetrius. Abibalus scowled instinctively. It was happening here, too, in sleepy Kyrenia — everything was getting nice and clean.

The interior confirmed Abibalus’ fears. Formerly dark and dirty, the tavern had been painted brightly and filled with new wooden furniture: tables and benches, a few of which were occupied by patrons. Rather than the boisterous and rowdy tumult of years past, the conversation was being held at a respectful and quiet murmur more appropriate for diplomatic delegations and scribes than for merchants. The layout had changed, too; the dining area was shortened. Where in the past there had been a long bar over which Demetrius used to lean and shout business and affectionate if insulting nicknames at the various travelers and traders who’d stop in, all of whom he knew by sight, there was now a clay brick wall. A pretty slave lounged behind a wooden stand, twirling her long black hair with cultivated disinterest. When she saw Abibalus enter, she guided him to one of the unoccupied tables and began listing the types of food and wine they offered. This was new, and Abibalus didn’t care for it — he’d been to many establishments like this, and it wasn’t why he’d come to Demetrius’. He could overpay to be served by slaves anywhere.

He resolved to leave. During previous visits to Cyprus he’d missed the island’s other eating options owing to his friend, and then more recently the loyalty he bore to the memory of his friend. Abibalus was just about to thank the slave for her time when he saw a small group of traders from Tyre. He knew this because he’d done business with their captain before, a crafty but trustworthy man named Phelles. He made his way over to their table, where a young man, one of Phelles’ crew, appeared to be holding court.

“Captain Phelles, my good fellow. How goes it?”

Phelles looked up warily, then recognition lit his eyes. “Captain Abibalus! Well met old friend. I didn’t realize you were back in this area. Here to pick up some of our old friend Demetrius’ slack?”

“Precisely right. We’re just in from Alexandria,” Abibalus said. “Stuffed with grain for Rome. But I had a chance to acquire some choice ivory from far up the Nile, and happen to know of a group of blacksmiths who are always eager for copper near Syracuse, so made a quick detour here. The grain will keep. What are you up to?”

Phelles grinned. “Stopped over here on a short hop from Tyre. Heading back with copper and timber from the interior, then who knows.” He waved the slave girl over and ordered her to bring food and wine for Abibalus. “Sit, sit, join us. We were just discussing politics.”

“Politics and religion,” said one of the men sitting next to Phelles.

“My first mate, and son-in-law,” Phelles said. “Kyriakos. He was telling us about some new god he follows.”

The Greek carefully wiped his mouth with a piece of linen he procured from his clothes, then cleaned his hands with the same. “Not some god, the God,” Kyriakos said. “Jesus Christ, son of our lord and father.”

“God the father? The sky God?” Abibalus said.

“No,” Kyriakos said, his brow furrowing. “No, God, Jesus Christ, not a god, or the sky god.”

“Easy friend, I meant no disrespect,” Abibalus said. He’d been in thousands of conversations over the course of his life and could see this one was in danger of heading totally astray. He resented having to diffuse what looked like it might turn into a trying meal, with him shoveling his energy and effort into the maw of this young man and his religious devotion to — to what? Some new god or gods. Meanwhile they were both part of the same old empire. People were losing out on economic opportunity, were missing the prosperity of the previous generations, and it seemed like every month there was some new cult or sect springing up as people invented new spiritual spaces to make up for their lost shot at wealth or social mobility.

On the other hand, all things considered, it never hurt to learn a bit more about a new god. And better to risk a little offence here, where the stakes were low.  This way, when Abibalus met a trader who followed the new god he’d know how to avoid putting his foot in his mouth. “Tell me more about this god. Excuse me, God.”

“Hope you enjoy the food,” Phelles said, laughing and elbowing Abibalus in a comradely fashion. “You’ve been away for too long. You’re in for a real story.”

Kyriakos looked at his father-in-law with annoyance, then launched into an improbable tale with the fervor and conviction of a new convert while the other people at the table ate or drank, obviously having heard this many times. Abibalus understood immediately how it was — this was probably the influential eldest son of someone Phelles wanted to be connected to, some Greek, and either had always been fervent or had recently converted. You live long enough you see all sorts of things like this. Abibalus was relieved it hadn’t happened to any of his children, becoming enamored of a god, but there wasn’t anything dishonorable about it. It was just sort of inconvenient — being dogmatic about a religion would certainly make life as a trader difficult.

“Hang on,” Abibalus said when Kyriakos got to one point. “Did you say the crowd released a murderer and crucified the King of the Jews?”

“That’s right,” Kyriakos said. “The Roman governor asked the crowd who to pardon, Jesus Christ or Barabbas, a common murderer, and the crowd elected to release the murderer. The blood of God is on their hands.”

“Jesus Christ is your God? And you say he was crucified?”

“That’s right,” Kyriakos said with conviction. “Then ascended to heaven where he is seated at the right hand of God the father.”

Abibalus looked at Phelles for tacit permission — this was, after all, his son-in-law, his business associate. He didn’t want to injure the man. “You know I was there. I was in Jerusalem when this happened. I guess it was about a decade ago. I saw it all.”

“You saw the crucifixion!?” Kyriakos was astonished.

“Sort of. It didn’t happen the way you said. I’m not saying your man Jesus is a god or not, but it didn’t happen that way. Would you like to hear how the thing transpired?”

Kyriakos was quiet. He looked intensely at Abibalus, and, apparently satisfied that the man was telling the truth, he nodded.

“So I was in Jerusalem on business. Normally I stayed with shipping routes, “do the trade you know,” as they say, but Demetrius was looking for opportunities to expand. I offloaded a shipment of armor and joined a caravan to Jerusalem to deliver them to the Roman garrison. This was a priority shipment and I was to be paid in coin. Good silver. Back then, Tiberius was emperor, and one had to take extra steps to ensure things like that were solid. Demetrius had a contact in Rome, the husband of a very good friend of his wife’s and this was a good deal. So it was decided that I’d travel further inland to see if there was other business to be done, other opportunities.

Well when I got there, of course, there was some kind of festival. And this was a Jewish city, and the Jews are a very devout people about their god, and the Romans had got hold of a man for preaching insurrection against the empire. The man’s name was Jesus, though sometimes he went by Jesus Bar Abbas. Some people claimed he was the Messiah. I can’t say how he saw himself.

I’d dropped off the shipment and was awaiting a meeting with the governor for payment, a man named Pontius Pilate — a quiet man, I can’t say I was impressed by him — when a great crowd gathered to demand the release of this rabble-rouser, whose name was Jesus Barabbas, or that’s how they called him. The crowd prevailed upon Pilate to release the man and Pilate agreed. Pilate said that if the city would take responsibility for him, that Jesus Barabbas would be released to them, but that if Jesus continued to preach insurrection, Rome’s troops would move to detain him again, and there would be bloodshed. This seemed to me quite proper.

So Jesus Barabbas was released to the crowd, and they were happy. The crowd headed off to watch the crucifixion.

Later, when collecting my payment, I asked Pilate about the episode and he said that this sort of thing wasn’t unheard of. The Jewish people would occasionally produce charismatic individuals claiming to be their messiah, their savior, a harbinger of the end-times. He said that he’d talked to this Jesus while the man was in custody, and helped him see reason. Then he did something remarkable to me; he asked if I’d do him, and Rome, a favor.”

The table were all watching Abibalus intently. Nobody had heard this story before, not because he hadn’t told it, but because when he was telling it before nobody had assigned it any significance. Abibalus felt that it was better not to dabble in politics, or in religion, save to make offerings to the sea gods of whatever country he was in. Crossing gods — or God — was terrible for business. Crossing their acolytes was just as bad. But — this is how things had happened and Abibalus felt obligated to see the matter through.

“Pilate asked if I’d take this Jesus of Barabbas out of Jerusalem and bring him where ever he wanted to go. He said, when I paused, that he’d give me a hundred silver pieces on top of what Rome owed me for safe transport. I agreed.”

Kyriakos snorted. “This is outrageous.”

“Easy son, Abibalus isn’t a liar. Finish your tale,” said Phelles.

“That evening, I collected Jesus Barabbas, and his woman, a woman named Mary. She was with child and he was a tall, good-looking man with fair skin, piercing blue eyes and the sort of ruddy brown hair you see sometimes in Ionian Greeks. We brought them with us out of the city. The caravan took two days to reach Jaffa at the coast. We encountered and defeated a small group of bandits along the route, which helped warn me off mixing land with sea trading. Then we prepared to set sail. I asked Jesus where he wanted to be taken and he said Marsillia. Said his father had taken him north of that place, to Britainnia, to trade tin, and that he’d try to get there to start over.”

“We took on oil and cedar at Jaffa and made our way west, stopping at several cities along the way. I found Jesus Barabbas to be a very decent person, a charismatic storyteller, a lousy sailor, and overall a model traveler. He was also good luck; everywhere we landed, prices were a little higher than I expected, and there was something available I knew I could offload at the next port for a profit. It was a good trip, and I was sad to see the man go when we finally reached Marsillia. I gave him and his wife 30 of the 100 silver pieces I’d received to bring him away, and wished him good fortune. And that’s the last I saw of him.”

Phelles nodded. “Quite the tale. Well worth the price of the food and wine I’m treating you to.”

“I don’t believe it,” Kyriakos said. “I know the story of Christ. The Son of God wasn’t some common criminal. And he wasn’t married!!”

“Two thieves were crucified, and some Jewish terrorist who’d cut a Roman Legionnaire’s throat. Jesus Barabbas was not. You can probably meet him, if I had to guess he’d be in his forties by now, with at least one child. Start in Gaul, work your way up toward Britannia.”

“No, the Romans released the murderer, because the crowd demanded”—

“Look,” Abibalus said, interrupting him. “Don’t be ridiculous. The Romans have never released anyone who killed a Roman soldier. Never. If it had happened the way you said, Jerusalem would be in the past tense, now, Tiberius would have ordered the massacre of the entire city, like they did Carthage. I’m not saying your man Jesus isn’t the Messiah, or if he is or isn’t a God. Or the God. Gods walk the earth all the time, and we mortals do what we can to get their favor and avoid their anger. I don’t know what happened to him after I left him, or what significance he has. I’m just telling you what I saw.”

Abibalus felt as though something had broken inside him, some dam that had been holding back a reservoir of anger about the world that people were making, this younger generation with their certainty, their fastidious habits, and their new gods.

“I took that man, Jesus, across the Mediterranean. That’s what happened. Whatever unfortunate they crucified was also a man like any other, just another sad body grabbed by the Roman Empire and put to death. If you want to ground your faith in a lie, that’s up to you, but you can’t tell me what I saw, what I know.”

“And besides, why can’t a murderer be a god? Murders happen every day. Who’s to say it isn’t part of your god’s plan? It must be, if there’s only one of god. Think about it.”

“Now,” Abibalus said collecting himself and turning to Phelles, “what news of Tyre? How’s the harvest looking this year? Rumor is the rainy season lasted a little longer than people expected… I can tell you the grain harvest in Egypt is shaping up to be about what people projected…”

The rest of the meal progressed well. Demetrius’ kitchen was still producing good food, and whatever connection he’d made with the interior in the Troodos Mountains seemed as bountiful as ever — the wine was uniquely delicious. And Phelles was a font of knowledge about the region, as well as the nuances of developing political (and as Abibalus now knew, religious) issues. It seemed that there was a lot more instability under the surface. And instability, of course, meant opportunity.

Finished with his food, Abibalus thanked Phelles for the hospitality, and absented himself from the group. He made his way back down the path toward his ship, where he’d bed down in his quarters. For some reason, he could never sleep soundly on shore.

The ship was nearly done unloading when he returned. The buyer for the ivory was waiting for him; he concluded their negotiation, haggling a little over the final price before settling on a sum a little higher than Abibalus expected. Tomorrow he’d make his way over to the smith district to hunt down name he’d been given in Alexandria and find the smelted copper ingots, hand over the coin, and arrange for its transport to his ship.

Then, off to Syracuse.

Abibalus walked across the deck of his ship to his quarters. Inside the small room, his thoughts drifted back to that strange trip years ago, with Jesus Barabbas and Mary. He’d forgotten all about them, yet here they were, before him again as though it had happened yesterday. Jesus had made an impression. There was no denying it. Was the man a god, like the Greek said? If the priests and prophets were right occasionally gods walked among mortals, descending from their mountains or clouds, or rising from the deep. Perhaps Jesus had been sent by the Sky God, or by the Jewish God. Why not? Abibalus remembered his eyes clearly, the cerulean blue, a blue like he’d never seen before or since, not even in northern lands where that color eye was common. And what a story it made, he thought, stripping off his shoes and clothes before easing down to rest his weary body in bed. Him, humble Abibalus, the ferryman to a great God. Perhaps there were parts of the ship where Jesus had walked… a blanket from where he’d slept with Mary. As he laid his head on a pillow, Abibalus could already see the opportunities opening before him the way they had when he was a young man, and the future was bright and limitless. The sun coming up in the east, over the horizon. The ship creaking, low in the water, its hold full of cargo. In the distance, the approaching port.




New Fiction by David James: The Infiltrators

Planet

Barabbas walked hurriedly down a dusty side alley in the old city of Jerusalem, glancing side to side before furtively ducking into a low doorway of a house where he was finally able to drop his uncomfortable human disguise and assume his true form. His size and shape remained roughly the same, but his skin changed to something akin to scales of a metallic green hue, and his face flattened and slightly elongated with completely black eyes and mere slits for nasal and auditory apertures. His mouth became a toothless oval, fishlike. For though he clearly was not a creature born of this earth, his own planet was mostly marine, and the intelligence that developed there were originally aquatic. Human biologists would lately describe the phenomenon as convergent evolution, and it applied equally to interplanetary organic life. He had actually come to Earth from a planet orbiting the star that would eventually be named Theta Herculaneum. He had not come alone, however, but as the leader of 17 emissaries that were to meet their foe on neutral ground for negotiations to a possible peace treaty of a war that had lasted nearly 100,000 years.

Across the empty room from Barabbas sat a curious structure: two dark metallic cubes sitting one on top of the other, with a third much smaller cube placed on top. This smaller top cube slowly turned a quarter of a rotation and back again, as sound emanated from it.

“Barabbas, I assume,” came the voice from the cube. “You are ten minutes late from the time agreed upon.”

“I was stopped by two of the humans. Soldiers of the Roman faction, apparently. They tried to detain me and were holding their iron blades as if to strike.”

“And what did you do?” Asked the cube.

“I killed them, of course. It takes so little for these fragile creatures. I merely used a charged neutrino stream and they never knew what hit them.”

“That may have been unwise,” replied the cube.

“What do I care? I disagreed with the council’s decision to come to this planet, and I don’t understand what we should have to do with these mammalians. It’s revolting seeing their absurdly primitive society dragging itself around in the dust, using organic labor to pile up rocks to live in. They haven’t even figured out the periodic table on their own yet!”

“Perhaps you should judge not lest you also be judged. Where do you think your species came from? Or mine, for that matter. We, too, started out as organic, carbon-based matter. We infiltrators, too, had to take the long, hard road to hyper-enlightenment and transmorphosis. From what I have intuited from the archives, my own original world was not dissimilar to this one. That world which perished in a supernova 500 million years ago. Yes, these humans are a primitive, barely stage one intelligence. But your own species, Barabbas, is not much older from my perspective, and still merely at stage three. Still dependent on solid organic matter, still stuck in slower than light speed travel.”

“Fine, you made your point. Let’s get on with things, shall we? We both came a long way for this meeting, after all. By the way, what shall I call you?”
“The name I have been using here is a common one in the local dialect: Jesus.”

“Do you have a real name?”

“Not one that can be conveyed aurally.”

“I heard some talk from the local humans about someone named Jesus that has been putting on displays of breaking the laws of physics as they understand it. Something called miracles, apparently. What exactly have you been up to?”

“Nothing you need worry about. Our terms for peace are simple. We will agree not to destroy your species and to let you maintain your influence over all systems within 50 lightyears of the Theta quadrant. All we require is that you leave the Sol system and all its planets, including this one, and never return.”

Barabbas, normally an acute thinker and decision maker, took a moment to process the shocking offer he had just heard. It made no logical sense to his evolved ichthyic brain, nor could he compute what permutation of game theory the infiltrators were pursuing.

“What is so special about this world? And what makes you think we’re interested in it anyway? We have plenty of our own, with much more promising species under development,” replied Barabbas.

Jesus maintained his same equanimous tone, his machine intelligence never betraying a hint of anything resembling emotion or sentiment, “Our terms are clear. If you agree, we will cease the dismantling of your star systems effective immediately. You must closely follow my instructions before leaving this world never to return. The rest we will be under our purview.”

Barabbas felt unable to raise any objections, though he still did not totally trust the machine, or understand what factors had changed recently to cause such an unexpected outcome. Yet he hesitated momentarily once more, warily and wistfully, before replying, “Agreed.”

The next twenty-four hours Barabbas spent on the planet before leaving were unusual, but remained forever mysterious to the aquatic Thetan. He sent a message via a quark stream to his diplomatic counterparts located around the globe telling them to exfiltrate immediately. He was then led outside the house by Jesus, into the busy streets of the primitive human city of Jerusalem. Both had obviously shifted their outer appearance back to that of local humans of the Judean tribe. Ironically, they shared a close resemblance at this point despite their almost infinite divergence of mind. They both had short, dark wiry hair with thick black beards, dark olive wood complexion, and wore loose linen robes with leather sandals. If not twins, they might have almost been mistaken for genetic siblings.

Jesus led Barabbas to another nearby house where he ingested some bits of plant and animal food with a small group of human followers. After leaving, Barabbas was suddenly beset by a larger group of Roman soldiers and arrested. He resisted the urge to neutralise them all instantly due to Jesus’ strict instructions to cause no harm to any human. He was subsequently released by an apparent local leader of the humans less than six hours later. As he ambulated towards the exit of the palace courtyard, he saw Jesus under guard by the same group of soldiers. Jesus glanced at his former adversary briefly before silently continuing his entrance to the prison. Barabbas left and walked out of the city, preparing for his departure according to the terms of the treaty.

He could not overcome his innate curiosity, however, and he delayed his escape to learn more about the Infiltrator’s plan. He waited on a small shrubby hill south of the city throughout the night. In the morning, he witnessed a slow procession approach in his direction centered around Jesus. He appeared dirty and covered in liquid blood of the human type. On one part of the hill a piece of dead wood was raised vertically to which Jesus was attached with ropes. At a certain point he lifted his head to the sky and said something in the local dialect, which Barabbas interpreted as “My progenitor, how have you forgotten me?” His head drooped down, seemingly lifeless. Almost imperceptibly, however, his eyes looked directly at Barabbas in the distance, as if signalling he knew the terms of the agreement were being broken by his lingering presence.

Barabbas felt fear for the first time in centuries, and immediately vanished from the city. He soon reappeared in his vessel orbiting the planet, where he briefed his companions on the demands of the Infiltrators, and the decision he had made on all their behalf. “If he leaves our sector of the galaxy alone, let Jesus have his plans for his human planet,” he thought to himself as they accelerated toward their 50-year journey home.




New Fiction by Michael Carson: The Childhood of Barabbas

Cave

 

My first memories are of the hills outside Judea. A small lizard, with a black stripe and black eyes, staring at me and I at it. I knew then if I looked away first, I would die, so I did not look away. It disappeared behind a rock, and I turned around, back toward the caves.

 

Antonius and Deborah appeared around this time. I see them clearly as I see that lizard. Antonius’s arm, wrapped around Deborah’s shoulder, pulled Deborah’s close as they stepped down into the shadows. Her feet, bound with bloody cloth, felt for a rock that hurt them less. Once far enough into the black, they unbound the cloth from their hands and face and touched each other gently. Deborah sobbed. Antonius used the side of his thumb to pull her chin up near his and pressed his lips against the pale gray patch of skin beneath her eye.

These are not their real names. They don’t have real names. They aren’t real and they made me understand this as soon as they reconciled themselves to the fact that I would not keep away from them because I had nowhere to go. Outside the law no one is, said Antonius. How I was able to understand them is beyond me. Deborah imagined the caves conceived me, this gap in the earth, and the earth knows all languages all minds because it came before us and is inside us.

I enjoyed staring at their faces. They reminded me of the melting rocks far back into the caves tipped with beads of dark water. At first Antonius grew angry at me, cursed me when he found me watching Deborah sleep, the only time she removed the cloth. But I told him I had never known anything could be so beautiful.

Do you know what you look like? he asked.

I didn’t know what he meant. I shook my head.

He laughed and threw a small rock down toward the far back of the cave and it fell and fell and made no noise because he thought it didn’t have a bottom, but I knew it did and heard it crack against itself somewhere far away and Deborah woke up with a start as if from a dream.

 

We lived together as we could for several years or months. They were dying but we were all dying. Antonius believed that those who behave as if they are dead are closer to God. He laughed sometimes when he said this and looked at me as if he were asking me a question. Deborah would only hug her chest as if trying to crush her own life out of her. I believed she was God and told her so and she told me you can’t be God if you don’t believe in Him and Antonius said maybe the little bastard is right, maybe that’s exactly what God is.

Eventually the disease that ate their flesh ate it faster than it could reproduce itself and a sore on Antonius neck grew and grew. I believed it would burst and he would be saved but it stilled like a rock and interfered with his breathing and two days later he had become no more than a stone with blue eyes staring up at the stone milking water above us. Deborah screamed through the night, a curdled broken sound I have never heard before or since. I went to her and touched her back and she shuddered and stopped the noise at once. We looked at each for a long while until she told me to go away.

I found her at the bottom of the gorge the next morning. She had pushed Antonius’s body off and threw herself after. She had little life in her but enormous strength. She could not reconcile herself to what the sun demanded. I arranged their graves in the crevasse where she had wanted to be, not in the caves, which she could never love, and covered them both with dirt and stones and a wreath of spiked plants.

That night, I searched for the rock Antonius threw down into the cave. It turned out not to be a rock at all but a small wooden coin with a wax image of Deborah before she had grown beautiful. I thought to burn it but mastered my anger and placed it under the earth where their bodies lay. A snake eagle watched me. I screamed and cried and threw clumps of dirt until it flew away.

 

Days passed. Years. I’m not sure. I started to go down towards the side of the cliffs where the sun disappeared, to get water at the black lake. I didn’t need it as I had the moisture from the rocks, but I liked seeing myself in the flat, sunlit expanse. The image of me would change shape, and I would touch it and it went away, blurred. The sunlight would begin to hurt my eyes. I would admire this pain in me, wonder if it was me, or another me, and I would not look away until the dark came alive with the sound of gray birds hidden inside the invisible.

One day in the colder months I climbed down from a vigil at Deborah’s cliff and found shadows all around the lake’s edge. I immediately fell to the earth in the manner of a lizard, as Antonius had instructed me. He said that the only other people who come to these hills are soldiers who would kill us in a heartbeat because we were outside the law, and we offended the law by merely existing. Thieves and murderers live here too, Deborah said. Thieves and murderers are just the inverse of soldiers, said Antonius. They would all disappear like smoke without the law. Deborah rolled her eyes and Antonius laughed.

Perfectly still, my chin against the warm earth, I watched the shadows descend into the water one by one, by turns, embracing a taller, gaunt shadow at the lake’s center. They did this until the light turned the black water the color of blood. Then they climbed up onto monstrous jackal-like animals and disappeared into the further distance.

They returned the next day and the day after that. I crept closer at each appearance. On the fifth day, I saw the man in middle of the lake clearly, his long raggedy beard and a calf skin on his towering, bony shoulders. I could see his eyes like those of that lizard from even that distance and his eyes did not look away from me even as he pulled yet another body from the water.

I would not look away. I stood and walked the last hundred or so meters, through the crowd of ugly, wax faces. They parted easily, like flesh pulling back from Antonius’s sores, and I stopped at the shoreline. A young man who had been in the water with the tall one, staggered out of the lake far away from me as he could. The tall one watched me, and I could see he was afraid and unsure of himself because he had never before been afraid in his life.

All are welcome, he said.

His words had no meaning to me outside the shape they made in my own mouth as I repeated them back and thought of Deborah’s eyes when I touched her that one time and the noise stopped for a moment inside her. This man did not have long for this world either. Death had already crawled inside him to die. The crowd around me breathed as one. I would come across many crowds in the years to follow, but they never could be more to me than this first one, waterfowl making noises to each other for the sake of making noise, unsure, terrified, as willing to worship this man as to cut off his head.

The man flinched, pressed his fingers to his eyes, and waved at a woman near the large animals. This woman put aside the small bowls she had been filling with red water and approached me, brushed my hair from my eyes and asked how I came to be all alone in the desert.

If I knew the answer, I wouldn’t have told her. People don’t deserve answers just because they ask questions. But they think they do, and this is why they are unhappy. I walked out from under her small, cool hand and through the small crowd of shepherds and fisherman and tax collectors, all bound in bright rags and half blind with sunlight.

When I passed beyond their last larval head, the entire mass moved all at once, contracting like a muscle, but I did not look back. I ran for my life, as fast as I ever did in my life, until my head swam with bright dots, and I found Deborah’s cliff and held my knees to my chest and rocked.

 

The soldiers came one day at noon. I’m not sure if they did so because they had heard about me or if a new administration had simply ordered the hills cleaned of undesirables. This is language I would hear later, in different cities, and have never been able to make sense of what it means. Only in the hills and mountains have I ever felt clean, pure, and filled with my own desire.

Their Captain ordered the cave searched. They made their way into the dark clanking their swords against rock and cursing the gods and the officer to disguise their fear. I hid deep down in the pit that Antonius believed had no bottom, in an opening no man could ever fit, and listened to the voices that I could sometimes hear down there, scratching sounds mostly but sometimes something more, a whisper, a song of some sort that set my heart on fire.

This went on for hours. I heard new noises up above, the echo of them leaving. I waited several hours or what I imagined to be hours and crawled out into the moonlight. It was a half-moon that night, my favorite. I liked to go to Deborah’s cliff and stare up into the gap where the white light disappears into absence. The longer I stared the more the light around it moved and then too the entire landscape and Deborah and Antonius sat up among the rocks. Deborah adored the moon. The sun lies, she said, but the moon guides us through the world’s nightmares into our dreams. Antonius agreed. I did too. You could hold its divots and pits and bruises in your eye for as long as love is insofar as it is love.

The soldiers were waiting. They must have found my footprints in the dust near the grave or Antonius’s portrait of Deborah, that mewling image of her before she became God. They laughed and shouted names at me and I stared down the Captain, who only had one eye and the sad frown of men deranged by pity. I held myself in the shape of a bat and tried to only hear, to not see, to go beyond seeing into pure noise and sound like the noise far down below but it was no good and I smelled one of the horrible ones creeping up behind me. Maybe I could have saved myself, but I would not look away from the Captain who was afraid like they are all afraid together.

 

I woke up inside the thudding noises of sprawling Jerusalem. Ancient criminals watched me from the corners of a barred room, near a fouled cistern, hiding in their human stink. I would be in many dark rooms like this in the years to come. The drunks and liars around me moaning and begging God for mercy. They didn’t mean to hurt anyone, they say in one breath and wish horror and hell on their enemies in the next.

It’s always the same, but I prefer it. I like the dark. I like the honesty. I can think of Deborah’s face, hear Antonius’ laugh. No one can take the memory away from me here, and I tell the others about it the only way they understand, through fists, insults, pain. I’ll burn down Rome! I scream at the guards, when they open the door, carrying spiked clubs and metal chains. I’ll set fire to the waters of Babylon!

The old men in the corners, who have been here the longest, who have managed a life in these holes pocking the bright ugly life above, beg me to play along, to just be polite to the soldiers, to keep everyone out of trouble. Shut your mouth, they say. Keep it down. Don’t be a fool. They’ll put you on the cross.

You think I’ll blink? I shout back, my mouth weeping blood. You think I’ll look away?